He Spoke To
The strokes that I have had have left a profound
effect on me. There are
some physical things, but they dim in the light
of my memory loss.
Whole segments of my life are behind some dark
cloud, and I have spent
everyday since my last stroke, trying to recall
will bring back those lost memories. I tell you
this, because I have one
memory that is the same today as the first day I
experienced it. Nothing
changes this particular memory......and for that
I am eternally grateful.....
and very blessed.
That's the day God Talked to Me.
We have to go back a few years, to my early
forties. My daughter
was soon to graduate from high school, I was
working at the local
hospital, my husband had not yet been diagnoses
with his disease,
and I was stressed and not feeling the best. I
went for a walk.
We lived on an acreage near the town where I was
born. It was
early spring, near Easter, and as I walked down
the gravel road I
"talked to God", not a prayer, actually; more
like I would talk to you.
It was confession time for me: I didn't feel
that I was being a
"Good Christian" (whatever that is), and that I
had failed God in
so many ways.
So I was going through a litany of all my
believe me, to fill several volumes. I haven't
always been a
"Good Christian". Backslid, a time for "few",
and made some
major mistakes in my life. Anyway, I was telling
God all about
how worthless, stained beyond recognition I was,
and how pointless my life had become. This
litany went on and on,
and I honestly think that God got tired of
hearing about it.
Because HE SPOKE TO ME!!! I can't tell you the
sound of His
Voice, but it was very real, very strong, and
GOD SAID, "WASN'T MY SACRIFICE ENOUGH?"
Like a lightening bolt out of the sky, my
thoughts went immediately
to Calvary. Did I really want Him to be whipped
ONE MORE TIME
for my sins? Did I really want Him to have MORE
the crown that He wore? Did I really want Him to
MORE AGONY on the Cross than He already had?
Wasn't His Sacrifice Enough?
The rest of my walk was with each step a prayer
of Praise for
what JESUS had done. Yes, Lord, Yes , Lord, Yes,
Everything JESUS did, He did for me!!! That WAS
You were taking to Calvary!!!!! And I learned
that by NOT
ACCEPTING what He so freely has given, is like
ANOTHER NAIL in His Gentle Hands, PIERCING His
with OUR DOUBTS, and probing His Brow with the
of NOT FORGIVING OURSELVES.
Have I failed the Lord since then??? ONLY EVERY
Does He forgive me??????
I have His Word on it!!!
~ Karen ~
Scripture: from Romans
For all have sinned and fallen short of the
Glory of God.......
If you confess with your mouth ........
Midi "Amazing Grace"
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